A hiccup.

I recently took this blog offline and made my tweets private because I applied to a fancy-dancy job last month and had an interview for it last Monday. I didn't get the position, but I'm a little relieved. I know how to play it better for next time and I can spend some time building my leadership resume.

Interviews all done. pic.twitter.com/RErB5Guxf3

— Jeffrey Nordstrom (@jeffnords) June 12, 2017

I'd got myself all dolled-up—haircut and new shirt and pants—and that was kind-of fun. A little jarring after growing that beard, but I wanted to put my all into it. And now that it's done, I can get back to blogging and make my tweets public again.

However, of course, it makes me also wonder if I'm entirely mis-aiming my life right now. Especially when I listen to interviews like this one:

Listening to this sort of episode of @areyoubeingreal makes me feel like I'm going about everything all wrong. https://t.co/y6kFP4rbcE

— Jeffrey Nordstrom (@jeffnords) June 13, 2017

Like, I finished a leadership degree, but do I really want to lead people? And if I do, do I really want to lead a school? Have I totally chosen the wrong approach to this?

Or, as the cliche might read, am I living my truth, my authentic self?

The truth is, I don't know.

Really, perhaps I'm expecting too much of myself. Perhaps I expect too much of a personal connection to what I do. Perhaps good enough is good enough.

The other day a friend called me an "anxious overachiever." 

Perhaps that's my very own personal syndrome, no?