In my "idealized version of what could have been," I'm a desirable musician who happens to have the time to work out and read and collect things and own a home and I'd totally be awesome and people would interview me and I'd always say very intelligent, funny things. I'd have people calling me up to talk to me and I'd never have to go out to find any friends or anything.
And there are all the other things in my ideal life that I won't post here for professional reasons.
Oh, the things I could have done to make my life so exciting and awesome. Oh the things that could have happened to make me the greatest guy this side of Glendon.
Instead I've lived a pretty good life so far. So meh.
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